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Gaslighting…
LightZoe G. Gaslighting is a term that has come up in my world lately, I don’t really know why but I can guess it’s because I was meant to learn about it. If I hear a term more than once and don’t...
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Gaslighting Story…
I’ve mentioned in other posts that the mother was ill with kidney failure. During that time, she needed to have surgery to put a port in her upper chest that would be hooked up to the dialysis...
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Dear Sister…
This one for some reason is the hardest letter to write. Dear Sister, I wish you could see the abuse, I wish you weren’t blinded by the narcissistic cloud of evil that we were raised in. It breaks my...
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Body Dysmorphic Disorder
Mirror on the WallZoe G. Some will know that yesterday was a therapy day for me. This past week has been really good and I was feeling stronger, so I chose to work on my battle with body dysmorphic...
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Boundaries…
cleaning woesZoe G. I feel like I’ve only been half here in regards to blogging the last couple of days, but life has been busy. As you know, I’m both preparing for Hubby to come home (today) and a...
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Funny thing…The Unexpected
The UnexpectedZoe G. This is just a short post today. Hubby has me resting. I’m still in pain and now that he’s home, I have to rest…lol Most of you will know that I’ve blogged about the anxiety I...
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Fear…
Hubby and I were chatting this morning about my parents. I haven’t given up hope that one day I may be able to talk to the mother. You know the sad thing is, it would likely only be if the father...
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Conditional Love…
This is a poem I wrote years ago, it’s in my poetry book “If I Could Write my Heart” The link is on my sidebar. He strives to give her, his beloved child a life a life better better then he lived....
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Trust and Love…
Photo Credit Flicker.com I am unable to trust. I don’t trust others or their intentions, and I can’t even trust my own thoughts, opinions or ideas. I was raised by a narcissist and that’s where my...
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Narcissistic Father Lessons…
A NarcissistZoe G. I just had a thought. I can just see all your eyes rolling…lol Yesterday I mentioned that I discovered through therapy that I was carrying my Hubby’s pain. Once I had the “ah ha”...
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Abuse,Food Aversions and Therapy…
Today was a therapy day, oh such fun! I’ve been working through my garlic aversion with my therapist. You would think, that would be a simple thing, but alas it’s far from simple. The aversion is...
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Narcissistic Abuse and the Abuse Cycle…
I thought I would tell you a story about the craziness of a narcissist. This particular story involves the father. Once upon a time…wait a minute, I can’t start it that way, that’s for fairy tales and...
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My First Journal…
Yesterday and today, I’ve read back in my very first journal. I happened to find it when I was looking for something else yesterday. It’s really interesting to have an inside view of the younger me,...
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What I wish I had the guts to say to him…
Dad, You are an abuser You abused me, mom, sister, pets You neglected me You ripped my heart and soul apart You lied to me You controlled me You caused me to live in a terrified state my entire life,...
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Comparing…
When one is raised with a narcissistic parent like myself, and too many others, we are taught to compare. It’s not uncommon to hear the narcissistic parent (the father in my case) make comments like,...
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Is it safe to be real as a survivor?
Yesterday, I was reading a post written by “Cat’s Meow” and it moved me to tears. Here’s the post I’m talking about...
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Do you know how to set Boundaries?
I did a bit of a series on anger, and now I thought it might be a good idea to do one on boundaries. As someone who lived under an extremely controlling, religious narcissistic sociopath; it almost...
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The signs of unhealthy boundaries…
Now ladies and gentlemen, you’ve just found yourself smack dab in the middle of part four, of my boundary series. If you’ve missed parts one, two or three, fear not they’re posted below. There will be...
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What I did…
Yesterday I blogged about a situation that I found myself a part of in my past. I gave examples of healthy and unhealthy boundaries, and asked what you would do. Thank you for all your responses. If...
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I have a dilemma I shouldn’t have…
I’ve had a dilemma that probably wouldn’t be such a dilemma for someone not raised by a narcissist, or someone who had learned proper boundaries, or someone who hadn’t been abused; because of these...
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